How my Cold Made me a Better Problem Solver!
My very first blog post. I have no idea how this is going to go so if you make it to the end fucking right on! This ones going to be about my new appreciation for health and slowing the fuck down in life.
I am naturally a GO, GO ,GO gal. I want to get shit done and get it done fast, which can be a good and productive thing right? And it is, but you know what it also is? It drives me to be an asshole. Seriously! Sometimes I don’t even realize it. Its like being in traffic and knowing you need to get over a lane. Traffic is going 70, the off ramp is in a quarter mile, shit, shit, shit, you cut someone off and, ah well right? You needed to get on the ramp and that was the only real thought in your mind. Well thats kinda how I live my life when I grow unconscious of my behavior. I am so focused and concerned on getting to my destination I sometimes cut people off. I am short in conversation, I drop the pleasantries and get right to business. No, how are you? How was your day? It’s, do you have X, Y, Z for me? Can you do this? Please do that. When I am approached this way I sometimes get butt hurt if I am feeling extra emotional, but I get it. Some people never do, and it ruins your chance to get to know them or network with them because in their book you’re an asshole and sometimes there is no coming back from that.
Another down side to being a GO, GO, GO gal is over looking solutions or sometimes I just ask instead of learning to troubleshoot and problem solve myself. For example at work I may have a list of things to do but number one priority is usually get my instrument on, calibrated and samples loaded so I can analyze data that is due later. If I am in rush mode because I am thinking about the 50 other things I have to do and my instrument isn’t calibrating I’ll just go ask someone for help, which can be a good thing, you never want to be too proud to ask for help, but in a way you kind of want to work though all your ideas, use all your available knowledge to try and hash it out! If you ask right away you sell yourself short by not allowing your mind to bend and flex and stretch to the problem solving strategies in your own head.That means missed new lasting neuron connections, and new memories that could help you next time. I think part of my problem is I want to feel like I am constantly moving forward and when I stop physically moving, to say….think up a solution, I don’t feel like I am progressing. This just means I need a different mindset. I need to know its ok to not always be moving because stopping to think about the problem and its possible solutions is moving forward its just not a physical movement.
Do you know how many times I have over looked the simplest of solutions? Occam's razor right? Fuck him what does he know? I need help! But not really. For example, I put in a line on my instrument backwards, or I didn’t have the chemical solution in the right slot? Stupid shit right? I would literally go ask for help like, “I don’t know what I did.” This was not because I was lazy, but because I really wanted to get it done so I could get everything on my list done. Short sighted though don’t you think? I may get everything on my list done today, but how much time did I add to future tasks by not allowing myself to struggle a little and gain valuable knowledge by problem solving solo? Or attempting to right? I superseded quantity over quality and I do not think that should be the case and I am working on myself to change that everyday. Writing about it helps ingrain it in my brain.
MISTAKES! I overlook the simplest of mistakes when I am on the GO all the time. I gave you two examples in the previous paragraph and there are more! So many more! Most of these mistakes whether they are at work, an inquiry with my phone bill, PG&E, making the internet functional, I wouldn’t go over what I did. Why would I need to right? I do everything right the first time, don’t you? Hilarious. But when I am in a rush to get the next thing done I forget I am a fallible human and I should always second guess and go over everything I do with a fine tooth comb to ensure the fault is not my own and therefore quite easy to solve.
Ahhh yes now how does this play into health? Well Im sick AF right now and it sucks. Being sick you are lethargic and sassy. You don’t have time for that nonsense and sometimes you just don’t have the energy or will. In this 3 days thus far, I don’t have the energy to go ask for help (that involves moving from my chair), I’m going to plop my ass here and think about it first. I know I am foggy in the brain, so I am going to double check my work. Forced growth is my silver lining to being sick lol
There have been other times I felt super introspective. Its not as if these thoughts fell on my head like an apple on Newton. They’re always with me, accessible if I look. There have been profound moments in my life that made me slow down and follow through on these ideas as well as just slow down and “smell the roses” so to say, more like appreciate the humans around me, ya know? The idiosyncrasies the features, the birds, the part of the earth you were born on. Slowing down and thinking allows all of this to happen. You just become more aware. One for me was when I saw the total solar eclipse in Oregon. DAMN that was………… DAMN! Lol If you have not seen one and you don’t get it, don’t worry neither did I. I heard a podcast about someones experience and I knew I wanted to see one. All I can say is this, I watched the thing that gives our measly rock life……disappear for 2 minutes. It was profound and grounding and will make you feel lucky you somehow sprouted on this arbitrary rock in our galaxy in this endless universe. You slow down, you smell the roses, you listen to people without trying to talk over them because you really want to know what they have to say, what they have to teach you. Your ego dehydrates and your flaws are more transparent to you, you begin to look over your work because you know you are a fallible human. Your brain expands and for me, problem solving is my shit, bring it, its fun, its exhilarating, and you get a sweet dopamine rush when you solve it! WHOOOOO! Thats better than any “like” or “heart” right? Your growing! Its amazing. Thank you cold!